I’ve had two days off from my casting job, which is so welcomed by me. Sure I get some anxiety about paying my bills and I definitely wish that I could have gotten a couple auditions in while I had no work. But let’s face it, that’s not how life works. Often when it rains it pours and when there is a drought there is a drought! So today I woke up feeling just a bit on edge. Not to mention I woke up to a stranger opening my door because today we got new toilets put in…which made me grumpy because all I wanted to do was stay in my bed naked…DAMN!!! So I grudgingly get dressed and hobble into my kitchen to make some morning coffee, bitching and moaning about anything and everything, then open up my email to the following message from a good friend of mine…
“Today may there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and in others! May you use the gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.”
Thank you my dear sweet friend for turning my day around. At that moment I felt such extreme gratitude to be alive and I actually felt like even though I had no idea what the day would accomplish I do have a purpose. Sure I may not have work, finances may be tough, I’m not auditioning, I’m not where I think I should be, I’m not on TV, I still have yet to book a national commercial, I miss out on my family and close friend’s baby showers, weddings, life celebrations, the list goes on… But I AM LOVED and I DO LOVE. I am so rich. We are so rich. Just after that letter I get a call from another amazing girlfriend and we proceed to talk dating and men for an hour…almost noon now and I’ve not done a thing to further my career or future along. Or so it may seem. But we laugh together and talk desires together. We find joy in each other’s trials and tribulations and make jokes about them. Laughing with someone is my favorite thing to do on the planet… or it tie’s with dancing. I decide though that I should get off the phone and try to make this day a “productive” one.
After I get off the phone picture the following montage…
Mia in the kitchen rocking out to spotify
Mia in my bathroom putting on my clay mask
Mia plucking my eyebrows
Mia in the bathroom still jamming out to spotify, sitting in front of my wall heater which I adore…literally just laying there for over 30 minutes
Mia taking the longest most amazing shower ever, using every scrub I own
Mia getting hungry and deciding to bake brownies, licking the bowl dry.YUMMY!!
Mia laying in my bed and watching the “Women of LA” music video — opinions on that shall be saved for a later date
Present Moment:
Ok, so not such a “Productive” day…perhaps not in the career path sense of the word. Then just as I start to beat myself up about it I find this article in Forbes magazine, written by Jason Nazar.
Today has been a success. I am recharging my battery, so when this world calls me to action I can do what needs to be done. I have been able to share laughter with a friend. Dance. Write! I would have never thought that I’d post two blogs in 2 days!
I think the full circle and what I really want to say to anyone who has taken the time to read this is that nothing you do is in vain. Give yourself a break. Let yourself lounge around if you are given the time to do so. Let yourself take more time than you think you should to catch up with a friend. Pamper yourself with a facial, foot rub or massage. These things are all a part of success. Work really can be Play. Consider it your duty to do all of those things which you feel you don’t have time for, because you have a goal in sight. Perhaps those things you think you should not be doing, are the exact things you should be doing.
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